Tres Problemas...

It's 12:14am. I have to be to work at 7:30, which means I need to get up about an hour earlier than usual. I haven't had much sleep this weekend--my own fault--but I can't bring myself to go to sleep.

My mind is going in many different directions, and it's hard for me to unwind...I want to chase all the trails to see where they lead, but I just get tangled.

My first problem is I'm listening to Patty Griffin. I shouldn't listen to inspiring music when I'm trying to get myself to go to sleep. It just puts my mind further into a messy helix. Please, someone play me some Cotton Eye Joe. I'll be out in no time.

My second problem is I have a lot to do in the next week. I tend to think about the things I need to do WAY more than doing tasks to accomplish those things that I need to do. For example, I'm thinking about packing for Guatemala and putting my clothes away in my room. I'm far more apt to sit here thinking about that until I'm too tired to move versus going to my room and organizing things for 10 minutes until I'm too tired to move. That's just silly.

My third problem is I'm in one of my moods. This is a mood where I'm thinking: "It doesn't matter that I'm up late on the eve of a very important, earlier day at work because this is an exception, not a rule." That's the danger zone for me...where I know I'll be fine in the long run, but my sprint decision is probably not wise.

I think I just fell asleep at my desk. It's not clear--I just know I was trying to figure out what was a dream and what was reality just then. Weird. It's 12:27. I didn't sleep too long.