la luz del sol

"Waking up without you is like drinking from an empty cup." --Damien Rice

I spent the last twenty four hours outside of Aberdeen, and while I cannot recount all that happened in that time -- there simply is not time, and no one wants to read all the details which would seem overly mundane to anyone else -- what I can say is that rarely have I appreciated Aberdeen more than this night.

There are times in life when you just know something to be true. You feel it in the form of a content solemnity or a quiet trust. You recognize it by the way it causes you to want to both cry and rejoice, and you may do a little of each or even nothing at all. It waits for you, and it always knows that you will find it in its gentle sunshine.

As I drove back into the city, with the companionship of a kindred spirit, I recognized a place I truly love. I love Aberdeen. I love its dirty water and run down buildings. I love its history and the possibilities. I love it's people. I love that it has welcomed me. I love that I know its shortcuts and that there are still streets I've never been on. I love that it has a heartbeat, and though we may not always realize it, that pulse carries a lot of good, loving, healing life to its own bodily needs through its own people.

Though the sun had passed the horizon and was then lighting a new morning around the globe as I entered from the east, I somehow drove into that gentle sunbeam, where no matter what, I know that I truly love living in Aberdeen.

Wise words that I didn't think up. haha.

Be here now.

Want what you have.

Expect meaning and possibility and success versus failure and emptyness.

Embrace what we might otherwise avoid; share what we might otherwise hoard.

Speak words of love and forgiveness and acceptance to yourself as you would to your best friend.

Fake it until you make it when it comes to your mood and attitude.